i have made many mistakes in my 34+ years of life. when i think back on those mistakes i usually imagine myself back at the exact same moment in time with all cirumstances the same and say, "hey, i'd make the same mistake again and be ok with it cuz i like who and where i am today." until last week! i was riding along comfortably in the car with my son and my ex-husband when suddenly Regret hit me like i just got a dead-arm from my kid brother. i felt physical pain. i felt the tonnage of the unchangeableness. i didn't feel like crying. it felt like any other realization. a regular old brain-duh. only this realization was of my biggest mistake thus far in life. that's gotta hurt.
regret
n.
1. A sense of loss and longing for someone or something gone.
2. A feeling of disappointment or distress about something that one wishes could be different.
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sometimes, it's just plain hard being us. then i think of the alternative. my life is most certainly a headache 80% of the time. BUT, i would rather be me then most of the population.
amen to that.
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